chibicandy01's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- end ChibiCandy01 [10:07 PM]: riddle me this riddle me that Who's the one with the import set Kou Lita [10:08 PM]: bob the builder? Kou Lita [10:09 PM]: Santa was supposed to bring me Japan but th' $%%!@$%&@$ didn't :( lol ChibiCandy01 [10:09 PM]: interesting.. Did i loan you that hellsing disk? Kou Lita [10:10 PM]: nope ChibiCandy01 [10:10 PM]: amanda must have it then Kou Lita [10:12 PM]: maybes or.....squirmy secertly took it for her own purposes O.O ChibiCandy01 [10:12 PM]: never know ChibiCandy01 [10:13 PM]: kamui is cute. But fuma is still pyscho Kou Lita [10:13 PM]: maybe Alians got to it! O.O ChibiCandy01 [10:14 PM]: doesnt matter. I'll just make a new one.. Man i use up so many cds sigh ChibiCandy01 [10:15 PM]: If you give the anime fan a cookie, what will he do with it? Kou Lita [10:15 PM]: teehee Kou Lita [10:15 PM]: throw it at the neaarest bishonen? ChibiCandy01 [10:16 PM]: dub it into an avi file to watch on playa ChibiCandy01 [10:16 PM]: get more dough out of it that way Kou Lita [10:16 PM]: awww....my plans foiled again....^^() ChibiCandy01 [10:16 PM]: or save more $dough if you get it Kou Lita [10:17 PM]: oh almighty gaav the demon dragon king grant me the power to Summon Suzaku...O.O teehee Kou Lita [10:17 PM]: THAT WOULD BE A GREAT AWAY MESSAGE!!! Kou Lita [10:17 PM]: ^^ I's a genius! ChibiCandy01 [10:18 PM]: ok ChibiCandy01 [10:18 PM]: want a cookie? Kou Lita [10:19 PM]: ummm...... Kou Lita [10:19 PM]: already hyper off da papsi...j/k ^^ ChibiCandy01 [10:23 PM]: :} Kou Lita [10:24 PM]: and they wonder why i don't drink when they want me too O.O Kou Lita [10:25 PM]: Mirkou lives in my room ^^ hes deyokaiing it! ChibiCandy01 [10:25 PM]: if i were nothing then i d be something so therefore how can something be nothing? Kou Lita [10:26 PM]: i dunno? climb the mountain and ask the wise man....^^() where is that from anyway...O.O ChibiCandy01 [10:27 PM]: ranma ChibiCandy01 [10:27 PM]: probably .. Dont know for sure maybe that one anime you know with that guy with that hair? ChibiCandy01 [10:27 PM]: lol Kou Lita [10:27 PM]: oh ^^ ChibiCandy01 [10:30 PM]: its cold. this way. Kou Lita [10:30 PM]: hmmm... ChibiCandy01 [10:31 PM]: friends =doubt pain fake= safe easy ChibiCandy01 [10:31 PM]: I mean who wants to solve something so meaningless? ChibiCandy01 [10:34 PM]: pebble in the sand Kou Lita [10:34 PM]: i dunno? seriously though we'll only be friends till the end of they year anyways? I dunno what im doing till I get accepted into a college and ya know.. ChibiCandy01 [10:36 PM]: to know, walk the lonely path to see, you will find this simple shadow, fading into the ripple of time. Kou Lita [10:38 PM]: its al so weird this time last year i was in ca saying to myself "i cant wait to get back home" but now im like home is where hell is...^^() ChibiCandy01 [10:38 PM]: bitter memories plaguing the mind, little things taking back the mind, forgetting is easier then the doubt. ChibiCandy01 [10:39 PM]: sigh.. no more no less. no more no less. rhymes are nothing but empty time. ChibiCandy01 [10:40 PM]: * * ----- Kou Lita [10:40 PM]: what dat? Kou Lita [10:43 PM]: my slippers golw in da dark O.O kowai.... ChibiCandy01 [10:46 PM]: once winter break is over I will no longer be in french class. so that would be that then. All ties broken. No reminders, and no pretense. I will no longer remember and i will no longer play the fake. I'll be me before my friendship with you. I will have erased all memories and will no longer speak to you about them for they are gone then. The only way for me to heal is a final break. I do not a sailor p and I had watched blue seed by myself not with a friend. No more thoughts for it no more time. Kou Lita [10:48 PM]: okayies ChibiCandy01 [10:48 PM]: perhaps we will meet again then. afresh since i will not know you. and i can forget all of the memories just as easily as throwing away the pictures and suigoi con tape Kou Lita [10:49 PM]: i threw out my pictures as soon as i hung up the phone ChibiCandy01 [10:53 PM]: something is nothing now isnt it>? But break is not over yet and until then i will remember everything and i do not feel any blame or accusations for anyone . Throw out the pictures that early? its okay i understand now how memories hurt the eyes to see. Sorry i have yet to throw them away. perhaps i thought they would remind me of the good times. or may be to remind myself why we were once good friends . and that it wasnt all saddness or regret. They were times that were fun. Kou Lita [10:56 PM]: yeah put its all the same for me thats why i was so upset with middle school cause of my "friends " that would tell me all kinds of horrible things about me that when i became suicidle and thats why i needed counciling thats why i got sick cause i didn't do anything but cry i don't need it to ever happen again Kou Lita [10:58 PM]: its to much pain to deal with when you get close thats why i thought i shouldn't have long before anything happened from the first day i met you or najeah step allie anyone i was thinking that ChibiCandy01 [10:58 PM]: but you are right . I was such a horrible friend , yes then if you say so i was. if that helps you to heal then by all means I am the one hwo called you names and talked behind your back..the biggest backstabber.. i am that if you wish. I really do need to get rid of all the reminders. that way it is erased in my mind. the only way to heal. the only way to be me. sad that this is the only way. Nothing to change it? No answer? no reason?> No hope? ChibiCandy01 [10:59 PM]: for you i will be the bad guy. for me I will not remember that is how we will heal. nothing can change that. but what is nothing but something>? and something could be the answer. Kou Lita [11:00 PM]: sure whatever ChibiCandy01 [11:00 PM]: one one end we can accept the reality on the other we can change ChibiCandy01 [11:02 PM]: may it be whatever then. the choice is the decision to fate. so i forget . and you move on. how simple . ChibiCandy01 [11:03 PM]: goodbye my friend, goodbye my memories goodbye my hope. -candy 11:04 p.m. - 2002-12-25 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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