chibicandy01's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- why!!!!!!!!! cried me? I feel the pain buried deep inside.. this human world i just cant abide.. the hate the horror humanity why cant you see why that in the end you really hurt me why why
DAmn why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why why i hate me i despise you because you cant make the sound of a child screaming leave my head.. why did i have to see that? was it some sort of punishment for being so caring to people? why .. NO HOW???? can someone do that? how can you hurt your own child... i mean really hurt them to the point where they are screaming????? I hate htis world if this is how everyone is... i hate the pain i feel now .. I am crying ya know.. I always cry when someone else is hurting... it is just something i have trouble with... It is like i can feel their sorrow their pain... i have always had this problem . I am just too sensitive... why idont know anymore.. i wish i could just pretend that this didnt happen i wish that i could hide behind a wall and block all this emotion..How do you all do it>?\ i mean i feel so sad for everything.. it is like i can feel the saddness of my plant as it dies... to look in an animals eyes and see mistreatment.. i wish that i could not feel it... i wish that i could crawl into a whole and just read my happily ever after endings where the goodguy always stops this pain.. not like i did i just looked away.. because i didnt konw what to do >? and i am changed now forever... i will never forget that scream... and i will always blame myself for not stoping it or helping what could i have done? it hurts so much please make it go away those pills are supposed to make me now feel like this.. cuz i aint crazy.. but they arent working... i feel so sick.. i cant eat... i dont think i can anymore..there just is too much pain for me too handle... damn this really sucks why why why why do i still cry? 10:17 p.m. - 2002-05-08 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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